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For a guy who preached peace and love, Bill seemed to have a lot of fury in him on stage. To me that was always a fascinating paradox. What do you think was the source of Bill's apparent anger?
I don't know. I guess just hypocrisy and frustration. The frustration probably just started with his own frustrations, you know, as little as not being able to have his own car, as not being able to go see Allure, not being able to do what he wanted. When we were really young, Bill had all the same needs, wants and desires as the average young kid, except for the fact that he was like in a trance and mental meditation that expired. He said that his ultimate goal in life was to become enlightened, which was definitely nothing any of my other friends had ever expressed, maybe except for my brother, in a different form, but that's a whole other interview.
A lot of people, after he died, asked what it was like being around Bill Hicks? They would think we'd go out to dinner with him and he'd be yelling, "fucker" or "cocksucker" at the top of his lungs. When I would say, "No that wasn't what he was like in person," people's immediate reaction would be to think that, 'oh, then it was just all an act.'
Oh no, an act would be somebody that was like that all the time, somebody that he just couldn't turn off or shut down. To me, that's more of an actor. Bill was real. When he got on stage he was performaning, you know, but he was channeling his own spirit, his own intellect. I think as he evolved and it got better, it was just more being his real self. He was very passionate about many things and as he evolved as a person those passions rose to higher powers, to, I guess, the highest passion on this earth, all that Mother Theresa bullshit.
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It's interesting because the guy I am working with now -- who does the super anti-government stuff -- has the same things in common with Bill, but he is just super against gun control where Bill was just totally for gun control. They would sit there and argue and the funny thing is they would both be on the same side. I don't know, you just learn that Bill could be super angry, but the conversations could have an amusement and entertainment value to it. Not that he was churning out faking it or something like that, but the amusement and entertainment value would raise the standards of it. Where one person would say something and come off sounding like a spin doctor, political guy or some guy on the steps of the capitol with a megaphone, Bill could say these same things and because he was making people laugh, everybody took it to heart.
Bill was just a very passionate person with a lot of fury in him. I guess the difference was, is that, he cherished his friendships and therefore he could have this kind of passion, like a good leader, like a good warrior and still be very gentle to his comrades. Okay, we're communists! I just admitted it.
